Do you ever have those days where your brain just won't turn off the negative commentary? The kind that just keeps on and keeps on nagging you? Two days until Thanksgiving and I'm swamped by annoyances, judgments dismissals, what-ifs, why-mes, he/she's-so-stupids, and all that nasty mess. I know lack of privacy and lack of sleep are making it just that much harder to sift out the bad and generate some good, too. I keep trying to focus on finding some contentment. Keep trying to revisit different happy-places: four-wheeling in the mountains, rainy day naps with MonkeyHubby, laying out on a beach somewhere, shopping (yes, shopping is a happy place when you don't have a budget to worry about), etc. But everything here, in-the-moment, just seems to override and overwhelm what little good I can muss up. It all leads me to the conclusion that we should have an off-switch for our brains. A switch that when flipped leaves you a happy, zero-worried, innocent, naive bubble of a person. A child in all wonderfulness of the word. (I used to be able to sit and meditate and get some semblance of this desired state, but when you have a roommie, well, time to meditate just seems unavailable. Maybe in the shower?!) Either way, noon on Thursday needs to get here FAST because that's probably my best bet at returning to non-headache-filled sanity. (Oh yea, did I mention that I'm pretty darn sure my crap-mood has been causing daily headaches?! Oh joy.) Speaking of, it's time for ibuprofen.
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